I'm not a sap, but I'm feeling sappy . . .

I had an email from a friend today asking me what was wrong. He didn't think that I seemed happy.

How can this special man who hasn't seen me or talked to me on a daily consistant basis, know that something was wrong?

Something is wrong. I'm hung up on a man who isn't hung up on me. Yeah, we flirt and we hug and we email and we go to lunch and we do all the things that on the surface make a girl feel like there could be something, but there isn't.

Why do men do that? Why lead someone on if there isn't anything. I've had most of my friends tell me that he's playing with me...he's liking the attention that I give him. But why? Why want my attention if you're not interested?

I've asked and no one has told me HOW to stop caring. He's been the first man I've been interested in since my divorce over ten years ago. So HOW do I cut him off? I don't want to do this anymore. I want to be someones yes and not someones maybe. So HOW? I'm asking for help here. How do I turn it off? And believe me...I've tried, but I suck at this not caring thing.