Marco . . . Polo . . .

I feel like my like/lust life right now is a game of M/P. The worst part is I don't know if I should be yelling M or P. Sometimes the M is so loud it reverberates back in my ear and other times, the P is lost somewhere between N and O. I know I'm not making sense, but my hot boy isn't making sense.

Marco - start flirting by email and visiting (all at work)
Polo - after 3 months of flirting and a specific email asking, I tell him how I feel
Marco - A, I am enjoying being your friend
Polo - Fine, but technically you're more of an acquaintance
Marco - Here's flowers and a card for your b-day (given to me at work)
Polo - You've made my day and night (he came to my happy hour)
Marco - email, visit, email, visit - more flirting
Polo - I missed your b-day....why didn't you say anything?
Marco - I wanted it low key
Polo - Get him a music DVD of his fav artist w/funny card...
Marco - email, call, visit....next day, email, call, visit
Polo - smile, smile, smile....next day, smile, smile, smile

I've not been so smitten by a man since....well who knows when, but I am. And part of me is sad because he hasn't asked me out (yet??). And the other part is so excited by the possibility of going out w/him. Yes children are involved and yes his divorce was final last year. I know I've been told to be patient (he's interested, so they say) and believe me, I understand since I didn't put myself out there for 9 years after my divorce. Is it different for men? It's almost starting to make me ache, I want him so badly. Plus, I've dreamt of him almost every night this week - and since I've met him, I've only dreamt of him once before. Why so much now? Does the word consume mean anything! :( I know, I'm irritating my self.