I can't explain it . . .

I feel so melancholy today . . . something is weighing heavy on my mind. I'm at a point in my life that I want what I want and screw the consequences, and yet I hold back because I really care about the consequences. I don't expect anyone to understand what it is I'm trying to say, I guess I'm just documenting to be able to look back and see where I was at this juncture in my life.